I've been depress for quite sometime now over my education. To most of you it's not a big deal because you can always pull through on the long run and look back at all the struggles you've been put through and can withstand anything that comes to your path without even shedding a tear. For me, it was like that. Now.. I envy my best friend. She is becoming a model for a company that helps animal shelters and store brand foods-to most of you it's not a HUGE thing, but her name will be out there for other companies to wanting her to work for them. Her grades are absolutely bloody brilliant! She is a role model for me of someone I know I can be too. I can do the things she does, maybe better. Who knows? But I know down the line I want to help others, but if I want to help others I must first help myself. Not just physically, but spiritually, academically, and mentally. If I can't help myself I cannot help those in need. That's the thing with me I like to fix the "broken". I do pick on myself which is horrible because normally i'm positive, confident, and such an asshole, I keep things to myself, but have been changing that to be more open and reach out to others! Its one of those long nights where you feel sorry for yourself and later you pick yourself up the boot straps. I want those good grades more than anything, making my boyfriend proud of how i'm raising our daughter, have my name out there to help people and to also maybe part time modeling? Just helping the companies with their business. Well, I know i've been through so much bullshit that I can pick myself up to get what I want if I stop picking on myself. That's why i'm upset and depress on myself. I have to stop, I NEED to stop. It won't do me any good if I keep lounging around and procrastinate. I've said it before and i'll say it again, ROME WASN'T BUILT IN A DAY.
Silly rant done.
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