This just came to me as I was washing dishes

I would love to be a model. I would love to wear the greatest and finest designers clothing, prance around in them, and have my picture taken. It would be lovely to tour around the world, eat different food, relax at the finest hotels, and take photos of the places you've been to show to your family! It's nice to daydream about this idea, but it sure does take a lot of work and rejections. I'm fine with rejections i've had it slap me across the face too many times to count! Especially last year..


Where i'm going with this is that i'd love to be a model and have the practice for it, the desire of this dream, but I would rather be of help and service to those who are in need. I'm wanting to be a therapist for cancer patients. I did get this idea from the movie 50/50, but also because I have such a strong passion for this. My boyfriend who has been recently deceased last year in 2011 and after having his child I really wanted to reach out for those who were in my position and also to those who are struggling and in need for someone to listen to them. I've seen it all when staying over at the hospital where my boyfriend was treated at the time for chemotherapeutic and radiation. He had roommates and a few were quite nice the rest not so much, but you can't really blame them but at the same token they could have been a bit more polite >,<


I've eavesdropped (at least i'm honest about it, so sue me!) on conversations of the roommates we've had to share with what they were going through, their families thought of it, the prayers they've repeated over and over by the book of the bible. You can feel so much energy of desperation for the cure to the disease that these children/teenagers/adults have and are going through. They are fighters as well as anyone with any disease trying to make it in life. I know this will take me a good amount of 6-7 years maybe more to gain this accomplishment, to be a counselor, a therapist for these people. I'm willing to do this for them, for myself, and for my little girl.