Я учусь этому медленно

A dear friend of mine and I will be studying and learning about Russia! He's been practicing for, God knows how long, and I have recently been starting. I really do love the culture and it's something new! It's different then your average Spanish speakers, common English language, and possibly French and Arabic, but that's rare around here in Cali. ahahahaha

I'd like to spice things up in my life, take chances, and start living my life. We've been told to do the same repeated cycle, been told what to do with our lives by our parents, and I know that they don't want us to be broke poor, struggling everyday, but of course we are going to end up struggling unless you're one of those 'lucky' people that can get what they want without karma or can snatch up anything (if you get what i'm saying.)

I mean to really live off the life I have fantasy over and over. I am in a balance between fantasy and reality. I've been told what to do that wasn't even my intentions to do or without me thinking about it. I've had a list to check off that my father had written for me.. and I started thinking.. what about what I WANT. I've seen my parents struggle and stress over about making money to live comfortably, and to get that degree. They have their diplomas, but the money is so hard to make and everything seems broken down that they have nothing to show for... I don't want that. I want much more and I aim to take it. To take what's mine and mine ONLY.

Quick snapshot!

Thought I should put this baby in good use*~

Shut up >,<

"You're a lagger.. a cute lagger"

And i'm sorry for all the wait! I've been procrastinating up the ass, and I was out of order for the last month an a half. I've been studying and blowing my money on a tutor who hasn't been in the least supportive or tries helping me with my work that I desperately need to do. I have taken a few photos here and there, but they are just snap shots. I'm waiting patiently, even though I am quite anxious, to start photo-shooting this summer! I love for my hair to be done. What girl wouldn't? I deserve some nice treatment. Every girl does!

Now, today I drove over to San Juan to visit family there. I stopped by at Fresh and Easy to pick up a few snacks to munch on since my family aren't vegans.. and whenever I arrive they would always have meat laying there.. as if I would nibble on a few pieces or two.. ANYWAYS, a very sweet lady that was in her mid 40's probably mid 30's, wearing a business look outfit, walked up towards me and immediately assumed I was Russian! Which to me is a very cute compliment! But of course i'm not Russian >,<
She loved my big eyes and wanted to book me in the model agency! How exciting! Well, I told her I wasn't ready yet and needed to continue on with my schooling, I have a child that I am DEFINITELY not ready to leave behind in care of my family YET, and that I have so much to practice on.. I told her it is my dream, but my place isn't finished yet here. She completely understood and asked for my number! I did, of course I asked for hers and a card. (She didn't have a card for this whole booking thig, but had a card of her other job she is working at.) I have been fantasizing about everything that could happen all at once. I just can't have it slip away so fast though. There's so much to do! Well, I have to sleep lovely's! But here's quick snapshots of myself. I bid you adieu! Until next time.. that is when I have the time ;p